I j u S t C A n ' t M a k e u P M y m I n d
October 27th, 2012
Minsky Recital Hall, Orono, ME
Benjamin Cox, clarinet / Philip Silver, piano
From first conception in early March 2011 until June 2012, the process of writing this particular piece has been an involved and unique process. Technically speaking, I juSt CAn't Make uP My mInd is the third piece I wrote for my friend, clarinetist Benjamin Cox. With each attempt, I found the prospect of deciding exactly what I wanted to do to be more and more laborious. It was during this third installment that I decided not to bother with trying to decide; instead leaving the music to drift where it wanted. The result is a 10-minute escapade that travels everywhere from slinky and subdued to chamber Jazz and Klezmer; urging the players to play "alla Zingaro!" ("like a Gypsy!") among other things.
Affectionately subtitled "squealing in two movements," I juSt CAn't Make uP My mInd is divided into two five-minute movements of wildly contrasting styles. Throughout the piece, references to the soloist are made with tremolos either notated b-c for the performer or sounding b-c for the audience. Though the initial intention was to write a concerto, sporadic cadenzas and soloistic passages call to mind more of a rhapsodic style than anything else. Obviously, this piece isn't really organized other than the fact that it's divided in half; which is sort of a poetic way to split a whole lot of nonsense. - Joshua Jandreau, 2012